Wednesday, November 05, 2003

They're odd things really. But it seems like they just sneak up on you sometime, but good luck getting yourself out of one!
It's kind of like, you're taking a leisurely walk through the woods, when bam! Out of nowhere, you've fallen into a 10 foot hole some stupid little boys dug to see if they could catch a squirrel.

It all started out innocently enough I guess. Somewhere along the line I went from being tired of school to being completely overwhelmed. So I thought I solved that by dropping a class to make my schedule easier. Well, I solved it I guess, but this doesn't exactly solve the ongoing problem I seem to have of simply not caring how I do in school anymore. Sigh.

And then Tiffany has a genius for roping me into all her problems. Ah I want to be there for my sister, but god knows that I seem to have a problem magnet stuck to my forehead right now.

Boys boys boys. I just need to stay away from all of them. Really! Thats all I need to say about that.

And friends, and their problems. I get drawn into their problems too.

Finally mother. More times than not I am sure she should be on some sort of anti-depressant. But instead I take the grunt for all of her problems, and I'm sick of it. Yesterday we got into a massive yelling match when all I was trying to do was be helpful. I am so tired of this. I am just incredibly ready to get my degree, get a real job, and get a place of my own. I just don't know how much longer I can mentally deal with all the stress she throws my way.

So my only hope is that tomorrow is a better day. That this week gets better, and that this slump I've been in will find the nearest exit and let me get on with things.